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The Blog of Darryl Dash

This blog is about how Jesus changes everything. He changes:

Our relationship with God

Our relationship with others

Our vocations - how we live and work in this world

Our ministries

This blog exists to explore some of the ways that Jesus changes everything. It provides resources and articles that will help you think about the ways that Jesus can change every part of your life.

The Lord himself invites you to a conference concerning your immediate and endless happiness, and He would not have done this if He did not mean well toward you. Do not refuse the Lord Jesus who knocks at your door; for He knocks with a hand which was nailed to the tree for such as you are. Since His only and sole object is your good, incline your ear and come to Him. Hearken diligently, and let the good word sink into your soul. (C.H. Spurgeon, All of Grace)

Sabbatical Reflections

Today is the last day of my three-month sabbatical. It's been an incredible time. Some initial reflections:

Rest - I had no idea how much I needed the rest. I was tired, not physically but emotionally and maybe spiritually as well. One of my friends has talked about the difference between a jumpstart and a trickle-charge. For a while I found that my battery was dead, and a jumpstart would get me going again - an extra long weekend or a couple of days off, for instance. But there comes a time when you need a trickle-charge. A trickle-charge is safer and better and leads to greater longevity, and it's exactly what I needed.

My mentor, who guided me through the sabbatical, explained that my job was rest. That's it. God would take care of the rest. I'm thankful for his wisdom. He was right. I received the rest I needed, and God provided everything I needed and more. By the way, I had to work at rest. My to-do list actually became structured around how to rest.

One takeaway is that I have a greater appreciation for Sabbath and my ongoing need for rest even when I'm not on sabbatical.

Identity - It's too easy to confuse identity with ministry. I've pastored for 19 years now, and before that I was getting ready to pastor. I found it freeing this summer to temporarily step away from my role and to rediscover my primary identity as a son of God.

This Sunday I'm speaking on Psalm 131. I'm convinced that David gets at this issue in the beginning of this psalm. He is king of Israel, but when it comes to God, he comes just like everyone else:

O LORD, my heart is not lifted up;
my eyes are not raised too high;
I do not occupy myself with things
too great and too marvelous for me.
But I have calmed and quieted my soul,
like a weaned child with its mother;
like a weaned child is my soul within me.

I rediscovered the joy of coming to God not for the sake of another sermon or study, but simply for the pleasure of coming to my Father.

Provision - I'm amazed at how well God provided for us. He gave us precisely what we needed at every turn. His timing was impeccable. Just when we thought he had given us more than we could have expected, he gave us a little bit more.

When my mentor told me that my job was to rest, and that God would take care of the rest, I believed that God would provide us with what we needed. I just had no idea that he would be so generous. We have quite a few stories of how God surprised us these past few months and repeatedly exceeded our expectations.

Fear - I was surprised to discover that fear is an issue that I need to deal with. I wouldn't have guessed this, but I've discovered some areas of fear in my life. I've been reading Running Scared: Fear, Worry & the God of Rest and it's been helpful. I'm also memorizing Psalm 27.

Who knew that this was an issue? It may have been obvious to others, but I didn't know. My worries during the sabbatical were pointers to fears and idols I didn't know I had, and it's been helpful to identify them and to learn more about how to handle these fears.

I'm sure I'll continue to unpack more lessons from my sabbatical. It's been a great experience, and I highly recommend it. I'm grateful that Richview allowed me to experience this. It's been better than I could have expected.